Alright, don't really feel like blogging about daily life liao...every time update bout this and that, you not sian i also will siao dao cmi lo..... And with the amount of things stacking one on top of each other, really felt the need to let out and release some stress, so read at your own decision.

I got so many things coming together this week and next week.
This Wk
-VB assignment submit on Friday
-Cmaths quiz chapter 5 & 6 this Friday

Next Wk
-Java project on Monday
-DCN quiz on Tues/Wed
-Java Practical test on Thurs
-Cmaths quiz 7 & 8 on Friday
-ComSkills report presentation on Friday.
-Marketing report or presentation on Thurs?



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Before you continue reading, I have to warn you, I am neither looking for pity/ consolation/ sympathy from anyone. Just treating it as an public diary and writing it out as a place for these feelings of mine to reside......So drop those pitiful comments, No Offence, and thanks for that.

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So many things, so little time....and these few days, felt quite distant from xiaozhu, how do i describe that feeling......

It is like she is already so far from me, but in the past, we could still communicate actively through smses etc. But for now, it is like we are just replying for the sake of replying only..... and i always felt the need to sent her an sms even before she reply, but most of the time will wait till she reply my previous sms, though it will just go on unanswered sometimes.

Dunno why been feeling like that, maybe because i lately been reading my novels again, getting damn emotional >_< Maybe, i am too stressed out, and all the more i need her to help me balance it out... Project/Assignments deadlines, exams soon... I dun believe I can cope on all of this on my own...

Besides, I read this in another novel before. It goes by the logic: What's the use of doing something perfectly or getting something you want so much when there is not one to share your sense of accomplishment or joy with you.... Been wondering about that, and it seems quite true to me....

But dun worry to much, i wun give up on my studies cuz of it, just felt the need to say it out and get it out of my chest, else so stuffy....

Tok about yesterday, our last sms was when she was gg out to learn cycling from her dad, then i dun want disturb her in between so waited for her msg, and my phone just remained quiet till now, not a single msg from her, and i thought to myself: should i just send her a msg of what i am doing now? or should i remain waiting for her to reply me no matter wad......

Thought of it quite some time, and decided to wait for her msg instead. But for today, it nvr came.... Felt quite sadded.. Maybe the guy should take the initiative? but i think i've been initiative enough, just that when ur initiativeness gets ignored, you will feel more and more disappointed, which is roughly what i felt.... Maybe, i will keep on waiting till she replies and hop around in joy and then reply her, or i may not withstand the urge to sms her and sent her an sms first instead. Weird feelings at work here, hard to control, hard to maintain, hard to figure out...

Love matters are always complicated when it concerns yourself, and simpler when your a third party outside. Realized this only after getting myself into a relationship and comparing it to when i am single and trying to guide kelv with his relationship problems. Opps.....

Hais.... What can I say?? I am really tired and exhausted, no more energy to cope with matters this much and huge.... Guess i better take a good sleep, wake up early tml, and work hard for my VB assignment tml...

That's all guys and girls, oh wait, it's Gentlement and Ladies :P:P Nights all and sweet dreams:D